Childhood fears are usually irrational
Silly
Ridiculous
But still very much there
I had a fear of being alone
When one parent would leave,
I would fear that they'd never come back
That something horrible would happen to them
I began to picture what my life would be like without them
I collected the belongings that had been given to me by them
I began to run through memories in my head
Great times I'd spent with them
Anxiety and worry crept up over me
I tried to keep it at bay
But if they were even ten minutes later than what they said they'd be,
I would worry myself to death
I'd sit quietly in my bedroom
Staring out the window
Watching
Waiting
Hoping
Waiting to see our old silver minivan roll into the driveway
Fingering with a necklace or some little dollar store trinket that they'd gotten me
Feeling relieved, safer when that old van finally would come
They always came home
But it took me a little bit to see that
I loved how descriptive this was. I could imagine the feeling of what it was like. I also agree that a lot of people, including me, blow things out of proportion. We do this especially when we're younger,but overall, we do it at any age and stress out over nothing.
ReplyDeleteI love how in detail you got, and the format you choose to write in. It wasn't required or expected but you still changed up the format, which made this piece very exciting to read. Your topic was very emotional and well put, especially given the time frame. I really enjoyed reading this, and it definitely read with emotion.
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ReplyDeleteI love how descriptive this was. I can agree with stressing out over nothing. My favorite line is "But it took me a little bit to see that." This poem was well thought.
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